I can remember when I was younger I was skinnier than a stick! LOL I was able to wear anything (or yeah and eat anything too)…LOL And then I reached the age where I started to “blossom.” My legs would itch (and I would happily scratch), but I had no idea what was going on. And then I discovered the stretch marks were trying to come through…..and then the big legs! Even the guys in my neighborhood (that I grew up with) couldn’t believe how “blessed” I had become….LOL
Transitioning into my thickness was a process, but one that I knew I had to embrace. I carried it “well” and so I wore a variety of styles. I loved to wear dresses and I wasn’t afraid of shorts at all. Again…. I carried it well and it was pretty proportioned so even going into adulthood it wasn’t an issue for me.
Now… let’s fast forward to about 7-8 years ago. That’s when it became an issue. Now of course I had gained at least 50 lbs, I wasn’t as proportioned as I used to be and I was self conscious about my body (especially the legs). I went from loving to wear dresses and shorts to finding a happy median with capris. Those were the new version of shorts for me. It was at this point that the thighs would rub together (insert baby powder) and I thought my legs were just too big to even show (aside from going to bed in a nightgown).
With the increased weight, came larger sizes in clothes…. I was almost in a size 20 (I’m cringing just typing that…insert anxiety). The picture to the right shows an example of a larger pair of pants that I had to buy…. but I was tooo ashamed to even wear those at my highest weight (you know sometimes stripes and dots don’t agree with the thickness)…LOL Don’t worry.. I am not throwing them away, but instead donating them. 🙂
But… this new lifestyle yall? Through my workouts and nutrition I am LOVING the woman that I am becoming and the skin that I’m in. Making this change had to start internally and because of that, I am to become the healthier and happier version of me on the outside.
These legs… Yes they still enjoy pizza, wings, and even cheesesteaks sometimes (did you see my IG stories last night for that recipe)….
But there is a portion and balance to it all. No more feeling afraid or covering up… and just wait for the summer. You will definitely see more skin! LOL
So thankful to have a virtual gym and support community that “gets me” and my struggles, goals, victories, nutrition, fitness, schedule, excuses, stories and more….. I don’t have to feel uncomfortable leaving my home to conform to the “society standards” of weight loss and nutrition. This community supports me in all of the ways that are important to my success!
Make sure that the company you keep supports you in every way. If they don’t it’s time to take the thickness and move on! LOL
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